My weight loss journey

I think the first time I weighed myself was last September around the time my anxiety started getting bad:( and I wanted to start doing something about my weight. The scale read 224, that ment I've only lost 6 pounds since my pregnancy WHICH WAS 2 FREAKING YEARS AGO! I was beyond disappointed at myself and thought "why haven't I started doing something about it". Since middle school my weight would always go up and down up and down it was like a rollercoaster but my pregnancy weight was the biggest I've ever been(230). I decided to finally do something and I started with eating better and watched my carbs (REALLY HELPED A LOT!!) I lost a lot of weight during my stress/anxiety issues due to the ulcers that I got I ate less and the greasy/fat foods would make it worse so I stuck with more veggies and fruit and drank lots of water. Hopefully soon I can start working out/ getting more active. Im slowly but surly getting rid of these pounds:) my current weight is 210 which is 10 pounds away from my first goal weight! My reward once I get to my first gw is to buy a tennis racket! so excited I can't wait!!:) my motivation is my family especially my son, I'd love to see him grow up and that is why I am do this<3

This Seaworld Mama :)

I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH SEAWORLD<3

In December as a Christmas gift my husband bought us silver passes to Seaworld San Diego and since our first visit I can't get enough of this beautiful park! My son looks forward to going every week (yes we go every week!) And he loves it as much as I do. It's so amazing how the trainers care for these animals especially the orcas, they are beyond beautiful and my favorites in the park. 

I love it here and these passes are definitely worth it!

Here is my munchkin visiting the turtle reef exhibit another favorite:)

I'm looking forward to visiting Seaworld all year long!

The "LETS DO THIS!!" List

I didn't make any new years resolutions this year because well "ain't nobody got time for that!" Lol. So instead I made a list on things that I would like to Do/work on, I guess you can say a mini list of goals and resolutions? Anyways I got this!!! (; :
1. Spend more time with my son.
2. Start sleeping earlier and waking up earlier.
3.Eat more veggies and fruit
4.keep up my WLJ. My sw was 226 my cw:214 my first gw:200 overall gw:150 :)
5.Have a awesome vacation this May
6. Pay off all my debt lol
7. Try new things:)
8. Don't try any diets!
9. Try being vegetarian again:D (I really want this to happen!)
10. Drink more water
11. Find better ways to deal with my anxiety.
12. Walk and hike with my husband
13. Get over my shyness!
14. Through the negatives and positives SMILE and be HAPPY
15. don’t become proud or vain,but give God the glory. Pray more and rely on God's strength to help me.

Rainy Days ☁

I recently read a post that someone wrote about their anxiety and stress,and how they dealt with it and it got me thinking that it's something that I've been wanting to talk/write about for a while now. It all started around my sons birthday in September, I started feeling really sad and stressed about many things that were going on in my life. At times I would start crying to myself (my son and I would be home alone) trying to hide myself and not let my son see or let anyone know. I really didn't know what was going on I felt really lonely. I started to get irregular cycles towards the end of September, my husband and I even thought we were expecting because we got a really light positive test...turned out to be a false positive. After that it added more stress because i thought well maybe I did something wrong and started asking myself, "what if I was pregnant and I did something wrong?" "What if I miscarried?" "What if I can't have kids anymore?", I just kept asking myself those questions over and over making myself feel guilty when I wasn't even suppose to feel like that because all I did was blame myself.  In October it only got worse...I distanced myself from family, I would stop talking to both family and friends, stopped going out, (I would tell my husband I didn't feel good so we would stay home), and the worst is every little thing would annoy me and frustrate me to the point that I would get easily mad at my son for the littlest cry or even him laughing would make me cry and feel angry. November was very painful for me. I made myself sick sometimes, and I had 2 horrible panic attacks. One happened at home and I remember my mom being there. It was the worst feeling I've ever felt. I just broke down crying,felt scared, alone, it was hard to breath, and my heart was pounding because of how scared I was and I felt so nauseous. My second panic attack happened on the freeway I made my husband stop the car because I felt like I couldn't breath, this huge wave of nausea came to me. I needed out and I just wanted to go home. I also started having body aches, ulcers, and I wouldn't have a appetite. I would be scared to go out and have a panic attack in random places, and I would wake up with morning anxiety always questioning myself "Will I be okay today?", " Is something making sick?" "What if I have something that can kill me" I would worry so much about my family it was breaking us apart. My relationship was not healthy at one point things were going down hill fast and I really thought this is the end. December I realized I can't keep living like this and I need to get rid of this stress and deal with my anxiety... it's destroying me...it was really killing me. It was making me sick I WAS MAKING MYSELF SICK..it was giving me anxiety attacks..it was slowly turning into DEPRESSION.  I needed to do something I NEEDED TO FIND A WAY TO DEAL WITH IT...and I did. I started leaving all my worries and started telling myself to stay positive. I started planning family time with my husband and son and started crafting more to get my mind off things. Things are not perfect but I am slowly getting better at dealing with my stress and anxiety. Since then things are now getting better for me, I've patched some holes in my relationship and doing the same with our family. Talking and praying to god has really helped me so much. I feel so much closer to him, I feel peaceful. I leave everything in his hands because he helped me overcome so much that has been going on in my life. I never thought I would write about my stress and anxiety, I am being really brave posting this because it's something very personal that I kept to myself. I always thought I was alone until I came across that one post and it really helped listening to others stories. I hope my story helps someone else too and if you too are dealing with anxiety and stress I am more then happy to talk and help. Don't worry be happy :)

12 things about me

I meant to post this New Year's Eve but I came down with a horrible cold and had no energy to do anything so here it goes:
1. Crafting is my favorite hobby
2. I'm a organized freak. Sure my room is a mess from time to time but once I start cleaning I can't STOP.
3.(Kind of like above) I'm obsessed with planners. I write down everything that will happen that month "birthdays, bills, payday, events. Ect."
4.LOVE water and mineral water can't go anywhere with out them lol
5.I collect anything Hello Kitty,sugar skull, and owls.
6. I only want 1 more baby:) another BOY but whatever God gives us is more then ok
7. To me the best gifts I got as a kid were a looming set, stickers, sanrio notepads, and the Amazon trails game!! lol
8. I love sightseeing- nature, museums, aquariums and more.
9. I hate romantic guys. Funny/humorous guys are the best:D
10. I love all the season's and holiday's: ) they are 100000000 times better with kids I swear
11. I don't care what everyone says.. I love a good deal! ...I've gotten 100% savings once;)
12. I L O V E being a mom.

It's the little things in life.

September 12th 2010 1:12 p.m. I was blessed with a beautiful baby boy. My life was forever changed and that day I knew what real love was. I love being a mom! I love waking up to a smiling face, to kisses and hugs, unconditional love, being called mom/mommy/mama, him coming to me for comfort, reading books together, my list goes on and on.

Being a mom is just so awesome:). Everyday I look forward to making his favorite breakfast and him telling me "mom Perry"! (Phineas and Ferb). It really is the little things in life that make me happy. He is my world, my everything. I'll say it over and over again BEING A MAMA IS AWESOME:)

Hello

Helloo friends! I think I started my blog around June or July of last year and around that time my son broke my laptop. I remember being so bummed out because I barely started posting. So the weeks passed and I deleted the 2 only posts I had and abandoned my poor blog:(, but I'm back! I hope to post a couple of time a week and meet new friends too . I love crafting and Valentine's day is almost here so keep on the lookout for some tutorials!

xoxo Jr's mama